...that its like pulling teeth to get me to update this blog? I have belly pictures and sonogram pictures, but I just can't bring myself to post them.
I got SO attached to Becca through this blog...I guess I'm in some sort of protective denial...like if I don't acknowledge this pregnancy publicly, then I can pretend its not really happening and then if I lose this baby too maybe I won't be as sad as I was with Jimmy and Becca?
I haven't announced it on facebook even and I'm already 12 weeks. I haven't bought a single baby item yet, not even a travel-size baby lotion.
The ultrasound pics are strewn on my dresser or in my purse, and the couple of belly pics I've taken are hidden in my camera and not posted anywhere.
What's my deal?