Was half asleep this morning and had my hand on my belly and felt a huge roll like the baby did a somersault...it was not gas, but I can't tell if I was really awake and it happened or if I was dreaming.
Felt something similar after Taylor and I got done with schoolwork today but on a smaller scale...its not like kicks or pokes or flutters but more like...rolling? Can't explain it, but its there!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Couldn't Help Myself....
...bought a baby girl dress with a cute sweater and matching hat. I'm so happy!
It's a Girl!!! Praise God!!
Read my bible last night for comfort....this passage literally jumped out at me:
Job 5:17-18
“Blessed is the man whom God corrects;
so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty.
For he wounds, but he also binds up;
he injures, but his hands also heal."
I feel so blessed and so undeserving. Thank you Lord.
I had to fast for 8 hours then have my blood drawn (I'm SUCH a coward with having blood drawn!!) and my vein collapsed right before the last tube so they had to stick me again. Ugh!
Then I had to drink some icky 50 grams of glucose drink and then the doctor came in and did an ultrasound. I was certain it was going to be a boy! But nope...there she was...Doc pointed out her little girly bump and said he was absolutely certain. (He has been doing this for over 30 years!).
Her heart was 152bpm, her legs were stretched out, and she must have been sleeping because all I saw her do was twitch her leg a little and move her foot.
Soooo precious!!
I'm having a girl?? Wow!!!
Thank you Jesus!!!!
Called my husband and told him and he called everyone else.
I'm so excited and still a little in shock! :)
I failed my glucose test...they pricked my finger before I left and it was 143 so I have the 3 hour test to look forward to next time...but that is also when the "Big Ultrasound" is scheduled for and I can bring a DVD and everything so I'm still happy!!
Wow. A daughter!
Job 5:17-18
“Blessed is the man whom God corrects;
so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty.
For he wounds, but he also binds up;
he injures, but his hands also heal."
I feel so blessed and so undeserving. Thank you Lord.
I had to fast for 8 hours then have my blood drawn (I'm SUCH a coward with having blood drawn!!) and my vein collapsed right before the last tube so they had to stick me again. Ugh!
Then I had to drink some icky 50 grams of glucose drink and then the doctor came in and did an ultrasound. I was certain it was going to be a boy! But nope...there she was...Doc pointed out her little girly bump and said he was absolutely certain. (He has been doing this for over 30 years!).
Her heart was 152bpm, her legs were stretched out, and she must have been sleeping because all I saw her do was twitch her leg a little and move her foot.
Soooo precious!!
I'm having a girl?? Wow!!!
Thank you Jesus!!!!
Called my husband and told him and he called everyone else.
I'm so excited and still a little in shock! :)
I failed my glucose test...they pricked my finger before I left and it was 143 so I have the 3 hour test to look forward to next time...but that is also when the "Big Ultrasound" is scheduled for and I can bring a DVD and everything so I'm still happy!!
Wow. A daughter!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Trying not to be scared about Tomorrow
Doctor appointment tomorrow...fasting after midnight, no food, not even water allowed....blood draw at 8:30am and I'm a fainter and a gagger. Ugh!! I'm nervous and scared already. I'm such a whiner!
I'm really hoping that I get an ultrasound, that baby is still alive in there (ALWAYS a fear), and that with it being 15 weeks maybe we could get an early peek at the gender....
*sigh*
Time for lots of praying!!
I'm really hoping that I get an ultrasound, that baby is still alive in there (ALWAYS a fear), and that with it being 15 weeks maybe we could get an early peek at the gender....
*sigh*
Time for lots of praying!!
Sunday, August 29, 2010
15 Weeks
Forgot to post my photo yesterday....here we go. 15 Weeks! (Sticking my tongue out cuz I'm all dirty and sweaty from exercising and house cleaning.)
I go back to the doctor on Tuesday...have to fast all night, not even any water...and then have blood drawn. Ugh! Pray for me!
So nervous and scared. Hope everything is ok with the baby!!!!
I go back to the doctor on Tuesday...have to fast all night, not even any water...and then have blood drawn. Ugh! Pray for me!
So nervous and scared. Hope everything is ok with the baby!!!!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Strange Dreams....Remembering Dates
I hear that strange dreams are sorta par for the course during pregnancy...guess I had forgotten about that one.
Last night I had two strange dreams....
The first one, I found out that Jimmy hadn't died but was staying in a foster care/therapeutic facility about 2 hours from our house so they could take care of his disabilities and be close to a big hospital.
When I found out I cried and freaked out and told me husband we could have been with him this whole time, why did we think he was dead? He's been alone there for months without our love! Alone! I told my husband we needed to be there right away to make up for lost time and kiss him and hug him and tell him everything would be ok and we were sorry for not being there....but we couldn't afford the gas to get there and we couldn't bring him home because he was disabled and we didn't have the facilities to take care of him where we live...so I couldn't visit him and I couldn't bring him home and I just kept picturing him disabled and sad with no mommy there to love him. It was terrible!!!
The next dream was that I put my hand on my belly and felt these tiny little feet powerfully kicking back at my fingers. It was so cool!! (I haven't yet felt movement with this one) The feet felt like they were the size of the pads of my fingers, yet there was enough force behind the kicks to move my hand. It was an awesome feeling. Then I said "Oh is this Jimmy?" and someone said "No, its not Jimmy" and I was confused as to who it was then if it wasn't Jimmy.
Strange, strange dreams.....I'm guessing I miss my sweet boy a little more than I'm willing to admit. It's been awhile since I just broke down and cried for him and I just don't want to cry anymore....so maybe thats why I'm dreaming about him?
EDIT: Just checked the calendar to see if it was a date or something....it is. Today is the one year anniversary of Jimmy's viability date...I remember looking forward to that day as the day I could finally relax because since he was viable everything was going to be ok. I didn't think stillbirth could happen to me or was a risk, really.
I remember being very excited and happy about this milestone one year ago....amazing how our bodies and hearts remember things that our mind has forgotten. Aw. Miss you Jimmy.
Last night I had two strange dreams....
The first one, I found out that Jimmy hadn't died but was staying in a foster care/therapeutic facility about 2 hours from our house so they could take care of his disabilities and be close to a big hospital.
When I found out I cried and freaked out and told me husband we could have been with him this whole time, why did we think he was dead? He's been alone there for months without our love! Alone! I told my husband we needed to be there right away to make up for lost time and kiss him and hug him and tell him everything would be ok and we were sorry for not being there....but we couldn't afford the gas to get there and we couldn't bring him home because he was disabled and we didn't have the facilities to take care of him where we live...so I couldn't visit him and I couldn't bring him home and I just kept picturing him disabled and sad with no mommy there to love him. It was terrible!!!
The next dream was that I put my hand on my belly and felt these tiny little feet powerfully kicking back at my fingers. It was so cool!! (I haven't yet felt movement with this one) The feet felt like they were the size of the pads of my fingers, yet there was enough force behind the kicks to move my hand. It was an awesome feeling. Then I said "Oh is this Jimmy?" and someone said "No, its not Jimmy" and I was confused as to who it was then if it wasn't Jimmy.
Strange, strange dreams.....I'm guessing I miss my sweet boy a little more than I'm willing to admit. It's been awhile since I just broke down and cried for him and I just don't want to cry anymore....so maybe thats why I'm dreaming about him?
EDIT: Just checked the calendar to see if it was a date or something....it is. Today is the one year anniversary of Jimmy's viability date...I remember looking forward to that day as the day I could finally relax because since he was viable everything was going to be ok. I didn't think stillbirth could happen to me or was a risk, really.
I remember being very excited and happy about this milestone one year ago....amazing how our bodies and hearts remember things that our mind has forgotten. Aw. Miss you Jimmy.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Second Trimester Headaches..
...the morning sickness is mostly gone....and has been replaced by these awful headaches that don't even go away with Tylenol...uggggghhh.
My poor head! :(
But...pregnancy is not meant to be comfortable...I think that's how we work up the courage to give birth at the end of this process. We're so ready to not not be physically miserable anymore. After nine months of barfing and migraines and mood swings and bloating and swelling and aches and pains and sleeplessness and incontinence and everything else....labor and delivery doesn't sound so scary after all!
Really wish my head ache would go away. It's our one year anniversary today. We don't even have a penny to our names right now (I sent Rusty with our last handful of change at lunchtime to get me a cheeseburger off the dollar menu at mcdonalds...) so its not like we can go anywhere, but if I didn't have a headache we could be cooking ramen noodles together or something.
*sigh* Owwie. 6 hour headache and still hurting. :(
My poor head! :(
But...pregnancy is not meant to be comfortable...I think that's how we work up the courage to give birth at the end of this process. We're so ready to not not be physically miserable anymore. After nine months of barfing and migraines and mood swings and bloating and swelling and aches and pains and sleeplessness and incontinence and everything else....labor and delivery doesn't sound so scary after all!
Really wish my head ache would go away. It's our one year anniversary today. We don't even have a penny to our names right now (I sent Rusty with our last handful of change at lunchtime to get me a cheeseburger off the dollar menu at mcdonalds...) so its not like we can go anywhere, but if I didn't have a headache we could be cooking ramen noodles together or something.
*sigh* Owwie. 6 hour headache and still hurting. :(
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