Pregnancy after stillbirth and subsequent losses.
In honor of my son, James "Jimmy" Elvis 11/15/09, my "littlest angel" May 10, 20101, my first daughter Rebecca "Baby Becca" Lane 10/27/10, and my second daughter Scarlett Burchfield 08/16/2011
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
I'm Angry
I'm angry.
I'm angry that my babies are dead and I'm angry that other people have their babies in their arms when I don't.
I don't like being angry. There's nowhere for this anger to go.
I hate that you're having to deal with all of these emotions (again). They suck, but unfortunately, there are not words for me to say to make it better. I'm so sorry that you're angry...keep looking up!
I'm sorry. I think anger is an emotion that you'll have for awhile. I think it is also good to get your anger out (saw the smashing pumpkins one). I think it is hard to not let anger consume you because it can lead to bitterness down the line, but I still think your grief, etc is soooo raw that anger is one of those stages you'll have to go through. I told my husband tonight I was "pissed off" that his parents were still alive and my mom was dead and she's been dead for four years, so where did that anger come from? (probably because I didn't address it sooner, which is probably good why you are addressing yours now)
hugs to you, I hope it is an okay day tomorrow on Thanksgiving however it is spent
I hate that you're having to deal with all of these emotions (again). They suck, but unfortunately, there are not words for me to say to make it better. I'm so sorry that you're angry...keep looking up!
ReplyDeleteI know. Thanks. Think I'll putter around in Angersville for awhile...it'll help me get through the holidays. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. I think anger is an emotion that you'll have for awhile. I think it is also good to get your anger out (saw the smashing pumpkins one). I think it is hard to not let anger consume you because it can lead to bitterness down the line, but I still think your grief, etc is soooo raw that anger is one of those stages you'll have to go through. I told my husband tonight I was "pissed off" that his parents were still alive and my mom was dead and she's been dead for four years, so where did that anger come from? (probably because I didn't address it sooner, which is probably good why you are addressing yours now)
ReplyDeletehugs to you, I hope it is an okay day tomorrow on Thanksgiving however it is spent
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